Not okayness

You know what is still the most prevalent thought regarding my sister, Ryane. The fact that she will never "be" again. She will never stand by my side. She will never laugh at one of my jokes. Come on vacation with me. Walk with me through the park. Live with me in an apartment, as … Continue reading Not okayness

Pain with Love, and Love with Pain.

So much pain in the world. Of course, as a social worker, I am taught to acknowledge the pain, but always lead with the positive. Lead with the strengths, the lessons to learn, the positives throughout all the negatives. But that pain is still there. It's caused by uncontrollable factors in the world. Parents who … Continue reading Pain with Love, and Love with Pain.

The fallacy of the world

I am sure for those who have been following my blog for awhile many of you may think - "Oh, she must be doing better - Her grief most be lighter, her burden not as heavy..." Or maybe you understand the inner workings of grief and know that each day is different from the last. … Continue reading The fallacy of the world

Do you remember?

Today marks four years since I lost Ryane, my best friend and soulmate. In her honor, I am publishing something I wrote about her six months after she passed away. Just so you all can remember how amazing and wonderful she really was to everyone she came into contact with. Do you remember? Do you … Continue reading Do you remember?

Permanent Death

The permanence of death - It is something you never really contemplate or understand until it's thrust upon you, and then your brain doesn't even allow you to comprehend it. You try over and over to understand, "This person will no longer be in your life, you will not see them ever again, you will … Continue reading Permanent Death

One Half of Another

You may be wondering where the name "One Half of Another" came from. As many of you who have been following me know, my twin sister, Ryane passed away over three years ago in a tragic accident. To cope with her death, I began blogging to share what was on my heart and in the … Continue reading One Half of Another

The Price of Grief

I cannot explain grief to you. All I can say is it is a creature of spontaneity. It doesn't wait until a holiday or a birthday. Or even an anniversary. No, it strikes during a lone car ride. During a Netflix movie. While your grocery shopping. While your laughing with friends. When you hear a … Continue reading The Price of Grief

My Built in Best Friend

Today is the three year anniversary of my sister, Ryane, leaving this world.  In her memory, here is my post from a week after she passed away.  Always remember ❤ My twin sister, Ryane (pronounced Ryan), passed away 11 days ago.  I am still in shock and feel as if I will be the rest … Continue reading My Built in Best Friend

The Power of Psalm 91

Does anyone else out there deal with anxiety?   Well, me too! My, not so little anymore, sister is studying abroad, which is so very exciting and amazing and unbelievable, right?  Well, yes, but it also scary and anxiety causing and crazy.   And you are probably thinking, "okay, this overprotective older sister needs to calm down." … Continue reading The Power of Psalm 91