The permanence of death - It is something you never really contemplate or understand until it's thrust upon you, and then your brain doesn't even allow you to comprehend it. You try over and over to understand, "This person will no longer be in your life, you will not see them ever again, you will … Continue reading Permanent Death
As I reflect over the past year and all the changes that have occurred, I can't help but think of you, Ryane. It has been 3.5 years without you. Today marks the fourth birthday that I have to celebrate without you in the world. In some ways, it has gotten easier. Now when I start … Continue reading Happy 24th, Ryane.
You may be wondering where the name "One Half of Another" came from. As many of you who have been following me know, my twin sister, Ryane passed away over three years ago in a tragic accident. To cope with her death, I began blogging to share what was on my heart and in the … Continue reading One Half of Another
I cannot explain grief to you. All I can say is it is a creature of spontaneity. It doesn't wait until a holiday or a birthday. Or even an anniversary. No, it strikes during a lone car ride. During a Netflix movie. While your grocery shopping. While your laughing with friends. When you hear a … Continue reading The Price of Grief
Today is the three year anniversary of my sister, Ryane, leaving this world. In her memory, here is my post from a week after she passed away. Always remember ❤ My twin sister, Ryane (pronounced Ryan), passed away 11 days ago. I am still in shock and feel as if I will be the rest … Continue reading My Built in Best Friend
Does anyone else out there deal with anxiety? Well, me too! My, not so little anymore, sister is studying abroad, which is so very exciting and amazing and unbelievable, right? Well, yes, but it also scary and anxiety causing and crazy. And you are probably thinking, "okay, this overprotective older sister needs to calm down." … Continue reading The Power of Psalm 91
6 months. It has been six months. It feels like forever and just the other day at the same time. I feel like I will see her at any moment, that I just hung out with the girl in the pictures that I look through, that there are more pictures to come, that I will … Continue reading Six months +
Purdue makes it easy. Easy to keep going. To move on. To not think about it. She was never here. Visited twice in my 2.5 years here. She wasn't a part of my life. Other than the random phone calls about getting my clothes from her or trying to get her here. I made these … Continue reading happily ever… After?
Another thought that keeps coming to my head is the fact that God could see this in my future. I can imagine Him hurting for me, and the rest of my family. What we would have to suffer when it finally came time. Him hoping that at some point the future would change. That Ryane would … Continue reading The Unseen Path
I recently went to Barnes and Noble to pick up a book for the trip to Florida my family is taking. When I was there, I decided to look in the section for grieving. There I found this book called Grief One Day at a Time by Alan D. Wolfelt, Ph.D.. If any one is … Continue reading Soulmates Without a Choice